As I have reflected on my last couple of tweets a word has jumped out at me. That word is desire. The pondering that got me going on this was Jeremiah 15:16 & Psalm 119:15-18. My desire is for God’s word, law, way, and will. Both were in the context of my lectio divina – one from my morning pray and the other from the book Sacred Readings by Kenneth Boa.
Dictionary.com defines desire as a to wish or long for; crave; want. I say that I desire God’s word, God’s will, God’s way, but my actions don’t always match my desire. I get distracted by life, by technology, but physical aliments.
I have to stop to make sure that my beliefs and values align with my desire to pursue God with all my heart, soul, mind, and passion. Jesus said this is is the greatest commandment. So where does this leave me? Like Paul I wonder why I do the things I don’t want to do and don’t do the things that I do want to do. It is part of the becoming like Christ, I can’t get there over night but I continue to strive in That direction.
My metanarrative is sound, my beliefs are firmly grounded, my values are more than mere aspirations, though they have not yet become virtues, and my outlook on life is centered on God. I am a work in progress with God at the potters wheel molding and shaping this lump of clay.